coming home to the intensity of DC has taken a toll on me. I spent so much time alone this summer, close to the ocean. Now I only see oceans of people and cars and lots &lots of over thinking.
I live in the most educated place in the US. people are smart and live with their brains.
I choose to live with my heart.
I am not sure I fit in here anymore.. at this pace, in this life, here?
I have fear about whats to come.
So I am reaching out-
calling friends, reading poems, sleeping whenever I can and hugging my kiddos too much.
I know the answers are inside me.
I am my own beloved.
there are times in our life when things change.
the past 4 days I have been deeply engaged in the most relevant and personal learning.
Coming out on the other side, I see myself evolved again. with a deeper understanding of who I am, what my mission in this life is, AND how I am going to do it.
It amazes me that I was chosen for this. A fully integrated life is beyond my wildest imagination of what beauty can bring. each moment, each breathe a gem- a gift- an “inspiration” ( to breathe into)
it wont stop.
like it had a secret view of the inside.
when all the guests left.
there I was again.
just me, the daily chores&the rain
washing away the insights
whispering to me, I understand.
i get you, friend.
ill give you a day off.
just be still- just be awake.
it wont stop coating the windows and surrounding me.
showing the world that is so beautiful that sometimes, its okay to cry.
just because its all so beautiful.
because we have so much.
because we give our all.
the thunder breaks in and reminds me of our own strength. like a deep call to surrender. give up, my friend.
” Practicing yoga doesn’t mean you answer your questions. It means you learn to live with your questions, rather than having some kind of righteousness that you have answered them. You remain open -minded all the time, because there may be another possibility you havent considered. ” Donna Farhi