in all the books

everytime I am working on something- I grab a composition book. old school and cheap. sometimes I decorate the front with creative visuals (depends on what I have around.. last year I painted the cover- that worked well!) and sometimes I simply put the date and idea. this past week I was intensely working in my new book. a place to hold all the ideas- the map- the plan- the dreams- and I stopped – put the pen down and had a wave of sadness and appreciation. 11 years ago the book was full of dreams and ideas for a school we wanted to build. it outlined the daily schedule, teacher recruitment plans, handbook tips, charter applications points that had to be addressed. eventually, the school opened. 

8 years ago the book was full of class ideas and times (prenatal, baby, toddler, family!)  and teacher schedules, biz permit requirements, endless tiny to dos and dreams for book clubs and author visits and family yoga training. eventually, the studio opened.

now the book has pages of questions that I want to answer for my students and commonalities for the people in my live thriving. schedules for how to include my doterra biz and my retreat schedule.  financials for biz options- coaching, teaching yoga, privates and groups… all with a pause. and a whole section dedicated to the book ideas and biz ideas for the next 10 years.

I love this bc I get to ask what feels right, NOW? AND what kind of life DO I WANT in the future. what is good enough for today and what is the larger impact I feel called to make in the world. 

my vision book is the way I have slowly and consistently worked through the big dreams and the daily tasks. 

this summer- when the energy is flowing and you are feeling so good in your body… what can you map out? what can you start to dream about? what areas of your life need a little more intention?

hint hint- some cool ideas

book of travel dreams

book of thoughts and poems and quotes

book of service project or plan

book of memories

shared book with a kiddo – where you BOTH get to include words and creations.

enJOY and let me know what you come up with. 

my new glitter tape does not like the heat!

girl, you got this.

Just to be clear, I don’t have it all together.

I am in constant state of learning mode and expansion practices these days. Basically, living with lots of unknowns. Trusting the process and journey rather than having a set PLAN. By the way, I love plans. 

Living with daily fears & discomforts for all the new things in my life and for the tough decisions about the old.

Let me explain.

I am asking tough questions every day.

How does this feel? How will this work.

I have a huge learning curve with taking my studio/class based biz online and making the live classes session based.

I have no clue what I am doing, I just know I AM doing. Moving beyond and into the fear. 

I am figuring it out along the way, being curious as to what might be possible.

I am pretty terrified TODAY because it seems like more things are in flow than I thought before.

#1. I just turned in a copy of my ebook, Delight. I am “nercited”  as Saylor says. Total butterflies & imposter syndrome sneaking up on me.

I am telling that non supportive, negative self talk to LEAVE ME ALONE.

I am doing the best I can.

#2. I have no ideas if our kids & family classes at City Dance will be able to continue past the Spring. There are so many things to consider and I feel like as much as I WANT it to work, I don’t know how to sustain it.  So, then that puts me at…. another round of letting go of something that I feel responsible for and that has been such a big part of my life.

#3. I love, love, love the incredible shifts that have happened for my students over the past 2 months and as I step into full time teaching and guiding and writing, I can feel the power of the inspirationsand teachings  moving through me. And to be honest, sometimes that is scary too.

I am learning how much I hid behind the studio- never fully tapping into my own intuitive and healer nature bc I did not have the time or energy with studio life.

And now that is gone. 

So now it is my turn. and as seth godin says, “its always your turn.” 

I am not totally sure how this will play out. I spend my days working and listening and reading and living… with some BIG questions about the next few months, the next few years. What do I want for my life?  

Today I made a vision for the kind of life and biz I want to live. 

And then I stepped back and realized, I already am. 

I am a seeker, always searching for the best life. And on this path, there will always be questions and maybe no answers. 

Part of what is really important to me is to be open about the behind the scenes of the biz changes as they evolve. It is really essential in my work to have transparency and be open because I think in a year from now it will be fascinating to see what unfolded. 

this documentation about the process i am in feels like an important part of whatever becomes or doesn’t. 

And since one of my missions in life is to share, mentor and support creative work & passion, I want this to help someone who might be changing their biz model or who might think my path with lil omm was easy or linnear. 

I am all over the place, but I know as I move towards simple living with financial stability and all my incredible life, leadership & creation skills that I am on to something. It is not sustainable to have my hand in so many things. And as a multi passionate person, I have been through this my whole life. 

Big Questions- How can I do good work in the world and live a simple life? How can I fill the needs of my own life, purpose and mission while building and nurturing my home, children and relationships? How can I learn to “overcome under earning?” How do I balance my ambition and my passion for service? What questions do you have? 

So, I will continue to share here whats going on behind the scences as lil omm and pleasance evolve. ♥️🙏🏽❤️