well, just a short 4 days after handing over the keys to our studio… I can feel the question sinking in. all this week people have asked me… “SO, What’s next for you? What will you do with your time?” and I know they are trying to be loving and supportive and they are curious! However, I have spent the last 18 months diving into a shedding-letting go-less is more mindset… which means, it’s really hard for me to answer this. Because in the past, I always had a next.
nothing. I have no BIG plans, no crazy new projects, no big pivot or shift. I will keep doing what I do. A little teaching, some writing, lots of inquiry and reading and creating… but no, nothing really new.
I am not necessarily “doing less” day to day but I most certainly dont have the same kinds of communications coming at me. the texts, the emails, the calls have slowed down a bit. The constant need to revamp an offering, change a price, go over class numbers, meet with marketing and scheduling and the bookeeper.. it has all been toned down with our biz restructuring.
suddenly there are hours where I am not by or on my phone and I dont have fear when I do turn it on- that SOMETHING will have happened at the studio that needs my attention. I have a thing about responsibility and integrity and answering calls and texts in a timely manner and it was getting to me. I was letting it take over.
to have more presence in my daily life AND do work I love feels truly like “the privilege of a lifetime.”
I am aware that in the past my responsibilities, commitments and creations tend to be rather large and rather public and intense. So, as I gracefully enter into the next chapter post-studio with possibility, strength and confidence… I am curious to see how it will unfold and how the dance of ambition, motivation and energy that are strongly in my nature will appear into my new normal of early bed times, guilt -free self care, and a desire to serve and learn and teach as my own spirtual journey continues to deepen and flourish and evolve.
“so.. what do you do all day?” someone asked me this week.
3 days a week I teach privately for half a day and then get 1-2 hours for admin work for the lil omm classes, marketing, financials, etc
Sprinkled around the rest of the week, I teach a babies class, a preschool class, an elementary school class and Yoga for Women.
Honestly, each day is a combination of teaching people and classes and biz development, personal development, writing and mothering. In the next few months I will finish my e-book & probably offer some health coaching privates and groups/retreats in parternship with other workshops I want to lead and create.
I have a full plate.
2 things I am proud of…
1. saying NO to a number of opps that came in my inbox this month… just clearly stating- I am not able to commit at this time. The truth is MY PLATE IS FULL. I am the home/caregiver and my children need me now more than ever.
2. financially, I made more this month than I did the last 2 quarters I ran the studio. I think this is really, really impt to share in order to cultivate a healthy honest financial perspective& relationship … this topic is so incredibly silent in the the yoga world and I KNOW why . I KNOW many of us would teach for free if we could but…. I bring this up – bc I am proud to contribute to our family, pay our biz bills and to start the conversation around worth, money, value, yoga and biz.
What is so interesting to me is that when I was running the studio.. it never felt like enough, and even once we reached our goals- we raised them. There were always studio or techonology or staffing upgrades to be made… BUT there was something SO out of alignment for me about this practice of NEVER ENOUGH. and now, that its just me, I can set a monthly target, make a work plan, achieve my own personal “enough” and get on with living my life (not working my life) . I can live in alignment with my values, as I set and determine them, without the more!more!more whisper.
As I continue on this journey, I am amazed at how this world keeps expanding. I want to keep living in “open awareness” to see what is possible for me, as we have no idea what is around the corner. A great teacher, Karen Maezen Miller once told me , “you dont have to be amazing.” And so now, I sit with that. Just moving back- letting other people take over, do the job, say yes, show up, run the show.
and enjoy my life, no matter what happens next.