to all my friends who are literary aficionados – I apologize.
sometimes the stories come so fast, that i don’t have time to proofread the spelling, grammar before I press PUBLISH.
but for those of you who need it to be all right. all the time, this is not the place to read (obviously)
and for those of you who know me, you know I’m a fast talker, typer, reader, writer, thinker, eater, always on a mission to slow down.
FOR AS LONG AS I CAN REMEMBER.. I have been told to slow down.
Teachers in school would say, ” She does an okay job with writing, but she never proofreads her stuff! She misses all the errors! If she would just slow down….”
i mess up- regularly!
On many occasions my beautiful friends and family send me notes about my spelling & grammar.
i definitely need some help and appreciate when they tell me!!!
But i also know my strengths do not lie in the details, the proofreading or the slow steady perfect writing.
it’s all in the passion, the memory, the heart.. and that’s WAY more important to me.
Here’s the truth about my writing….
i often get up early, 5ish, sit down and just go. i ponder for weeks or days before about the topic , sometimes I’m just out in the world and I grab my phone and can write fast and furious and honestly right there… something I have learned, listened to, a recipe that was fun or easy, a beautiful moment, a memory, or an experience that was ordinary or profound. – if i don’t have anything to say, I dont write. I have a lot of drafts waiting for some work. Or not.
But when the moment comes – it’s like a wave.. many, many writers talk about this – the out of body experience, the flow….. the wondering, “where did this come from? Why does it feel like it has to come out?”
I have been writing my whole life. I have a closet of journals, that I just started opening.
Right now, I have no MUST DO just WANT TO.
I journal daily, I blog occasionally. When I press publish, I go live. I try to let it breathe, not consume me with fears or regrets.
I wanted to say this in a safe space, where I know it’s okay to just be. to allow myself mistakes, to ask for some grace.
** Oh, and I’m in the market for a super secret editor/ cleaner upper type who wants to go in and fix all my mistakes.