glitter love

“find out who you are, and do it on purpose.”

it is this. totally and completely just going there. regularly. checking in.
digging deep. find out who you are.

a few years ago I would have never shared a picture of myself like this.

that girl who whispers…
“they will think your vain”
“don’t get so into yourself, they will judge you”
“they wont like you.”

this year, I am learning to quiet her.

AND to embrace my pure joy that feeds me and has been a long time coming. I am happy. I look happy. I found out who I am, and I live on purpose. I want to share what I have done and continue to do with others. that brings me joy.

I have boxes of photos & journals that I want to share with you to prove it wasn’t always this way. evidence that I was so unhealthy and unhappy … but I don’t have to.

I can actually be happy without feeling bad about it. without having to share about the painful past as a way to prove that I deserve this.

whoa. that could be the release I have been waiting for.

what if I don’t have to tell it all, or bring it with me.

I could just shine. I could live on purpose because Its my dharma. I have spent my whole life to be here.


top reads 2014

oldies and goodies in the mix-
books to deepen my practice and life!

enjoy- and for fiction… I finally read Goldfinch & The Signature of All Things. loved!


“And as much as I’d like to believe there’s a truth beyond illusion, I’ve come to believe that there’s no truth beyond illusion. Because, between ‘reality’ on the one hand, and the point where the mind strikes reality, there’s a middle zone, a rainbow edge where beauty comes into being, where two very different surfaces mingle and blur to provide what life does not: and this is the space where all art exists, and all magic.”
Donna Tartt, The Goldfinch


Inspired by Zen Habits…

I have read Zen Habits for years now- once of my fav blogs. Here’s the latest. ENJOY.

 I follow these regularly and find them to be TRUTH for how to live with peace and balance and flexibility..

Ideas for an Awesome 2015

If you follow these ideas for the next year, I think you’ll create something truly amazing:

  1. Create habits, not goals or resolutions. Resolutions are like wishful thinking, that fade away inevitably as the year’s newness wears off. Goals are great, but it’s hard to juggle 5-10 new goals when you have a lot of other things always going on. Instead, focus on one new habit at a time, and give it your full attention, until it becomes automatic. Then do another new habit. After a year, you could have 12 new habits, and you’ll be a lot closer to any goals you might have wanted to reach.
  2. Be all in. Most people fail at their resolutions because they write them down, start taking action, and then let themselves quit when things get hard. But what if you committed to doing the habit of meditation in January, or you’d have to give up your favorite food for a year? What if you had to pay $10,000 if you missed two straight days of meditation? Would you stick to the habit then? Of course you would — because you’d be fully committed. Find a way to be all in, and you’ll make your habits stick.
  3. Focus on weekly adaptations. Most people try to focus on something that will take a year to achieve, but you lose motivation, and what if things change during that year? Instead, focus on one week at a time. That’s a doable chunk of time — you can do a week at a time, but you can’t really do a year at a time. And each week, see how you can adapt what you’re doing so that your method gets better and better over time. Review how you did, find the obstacles, and plan around them for the next week.
  4. Find your crew. You can do great things on your own, but you’re much more likely to get them done if you have a group of friends who are holding you accountable, and who you’re holding accountable too. Hold each others’ feet to the fire. Root each other on. Hold regular meetings to make sure everyone is staying on track, and don’t let your crew fall off track.
  5. Fill your year with curiosity and a learning stance. Many people get discouraged if they fall off their goals or habits, but that’s because they have an all-or-nothing mindset. They see failure as evidence that they can’t do it. Far from it: failure is evidence that things need adjusting. It’s a way to learn, so that you can get better. Be curious about what will work for you, about what this new habit will be like (instead of having a preconceived idea), and about what happens when you make adjustments. See all your successes and failures as learning, not a sign that you are good or not good. With this flexible mindset, you’ll be able to weather out any kinds of disruptions, missteps, obstacles or changes.