“We cannot lose heart when we lose heart. Life demands that we be courageous just as life demands that we be compassionate. Display the willingness to be uncomfortable. Have faith in your own human heart.” – Rolf Gates
After I posted my last blog CRASH, so many of you reached out. thank you. I felt the support and love.
I also want to make sure that I am clear, I am okay. I will be okay. All is okay.
It’s not a secret that the lil omm yoga building is for sale and the future of where LO will be is up in the air.
I’m working on a number of options and I have a deep trust that it’s all happening as it should.
AND, I’m scared. It’s the unknown. There is uncertainty, for sure.
The LEARNING for me is to HOW I deal with it all… how I STOPPED. Paused. Took a breathe and slowed down.. INSTEAD of speeding up- freaking out- running around- working too much or too late-doubting myself, yelling at the kids.. ( you get the point). That was the old way.
Here is what I did to help myself get grounded and centered….
First, I took a bath. in the middle of the day- I closed the door, lit a candle, and relaxed.
Then, I did this. A Beautiful yoga practice, thanks to Kripalu online. I only did half.. but I was already feeling better by then.
Then I went to dinner with my husband, and talked about how I was feeling.
I am mindful to not just write about wonderful, beautiful things b/c reality is a bit more complicated.. a little more messy.
Sometimes, our lives have struggle, in fact that is a guarantee….Suffering IS the known, it’s part of being human.
So for now, I’m going to give myself some space. Clear my schedule a bit and I’m going to take good care.
I will be honest and open with friends about my fears, and be whole. I don’t want you to just see the smiles and the laughs.
Someone said to me today, good to see you cry- just nice to know you are human and not a superwoman…
YIKES!!! I am a totally real life day- to day average human being with responsibility, conflict, suffering and fear… I just use the practices that I am learning to HELP me along the way… to help make is a bit less intense, a little less painful, and to help me ENJOY the ride…
* Erich Schiffmann taught me the term “flowing on” which just means- in certain poses or situations.. you can choose to hold and breathe or you can ” flow on” when you feel ready…Today, I flow on.
HOW TO BUILD INNER STRENGTH
“You build inner strength through embracing the totality of your experience, both the delightful parts and the difficult parts. Embracing the totality of your experience is one definition of having loving-kindness for yourself. Loving-kindness for yourself does not mean making sure you’re feeling good all the time—trying to set up your life so that you’re comfortable every moment. Rather, it means setting up your life so that you have time for meditation and self-reflection, for kindhearted, compassionate self-honesty. In this way you become more attuned to seeing when you’re biting the hook, when you’re getting caught in the undertow of emotions, when you’re grasping and when you’re letting go. This is the way you become a true friend to yourself just as you are, with both your laziness and your bravery. There is no step more important than this. “