I remember so clearly the days she was being built, the love we gave her- we would sit and dream.
“we’ll put a couch here, open up the windows and take naps” and we did.
My hubby built this house as a gift for us, about to be married we built this place on so much love. future, kids,” some day”, busy meaningful jobs, friends and just an overwhelming sense of our life ahead.
and now on our 2nd to last night here, the house that heard my babies cry and that held me so tight over the past 9 years, it’s time to say goodbye.
I’ve been waiting for this moment. I don’t know if it’s the non stop rain or the water pouring over my hands on the dishes but it’s like I’m drowning in change. I’m ready to let go and part of this NEW MOON intention time is looking ahead, cleansing, clearing, LETTING go. this beautiful place that held so much love, I’m ready to say goodbye AND grieve a little. I’m ready for what’s next AND I’m sad about what I’m leaving behind.
Goodbye house. You gave me so much. lil omm was dreamed up here, worked on here, loved here and cried about here, in these very walls So many tears happened here. My heart broke here over and over. I loved here like I had never known. You are holding our memories. AS I look towards our next chapter, I’m in a really good place. I feel totally supported in my life. I feel deeply connected to the work and the life I have, and I know that no HOUSE carries that. I know that I carry happiness and contentment inside of myself. that no PLACE or person will ever hold that key but me.
BUT, tonight I say goodbye to the place that supported the deep personal inquiry I have explored. I pulled back a lot of layers here, my heart exploded here and the deepest unveiling of my self TO my own self has occurred over the past 9 years here. I healed. I became a mom. I grew up. I came home.
this house gave me the space and the beauty to study, to learn, to practice and to be curious about my life and eventually, I found my way back to ME.
In this house that actually “grew me up” I found my heart, my calling, my love, my self.