today

today is a tough day.

I often write about all the joy&gratitude I have daily. and then I have a day like today to teach me how to use my practice. to throw me up against the wall of life and say ” now what lady! Thought you LOVED life!! hahhahaha!!”

and ya know what I do.

crying kids, long pointless car rides, nanny calls, sick baby, barking dog, canceled classes. I would not change it. my practice has given me the skills and tools to just notice, be aware- and own my feelings. at least IM IN my life! fully alive and awake to today.

I felt a lot of different emotions today& was pushed to let go of how I think anything SHOULD go and just let them be.

theres always the next moment to let go a bit more or to smile and hug someone. to find a way to serve someone else when Im feeling down bc I know that ALWAYS makes me feel better.

So, I will take it. the tough days are part of the “DARING GREATLY” , this is I know. and just like that, I feel better.

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morning

she crawled into bed & I lifted the sheet.
I felt her long, lean body and I snuggled it in. I did not think to move her or turn away from her. Instead I leaned in more. She wrapped her arms around my neck & I whispered, ” I love you sweet girl”
Holding my baby tight. My heart heavy from another day of violence and fear.
For now, I only have this. Kindness & love to my family, the strangers I pass in the day & a dedication in my life to do good. to help. to serve locally however I can. middle of the night squeezes help ease an aching heart when the world seems upside down. when darkness comes into our lives, I cling to her light.

would you believe?

tonight something happened for the first time in my life.

I was given an award for a bness group I’m in. BNESS?  Really? I NEVER would have thought.. who knew?

I’m beyond touched&grateful.

In fact, so much so that I cant really remember what its for…  After the founder of the group & one of my mentors, Frederique, called out my name- my mind went blank & I forgot why I was even getting it. I know it had something to do with connecting  with group members, collaborating, sharing and supporting- which I think is kinda what I’m here on this earth to do.

So for me, it’s not really about business it’s about being who I am. Authentically living & acting in a way that supports my own life, growth and path. I LOVE to share, help, teach work with others and promote things I  believe in.

So, getting an award was pretty cool. I mean, I was ALWAYS last when we ran  the mile in school, on JV sports for too many years, 2nd chair in Oboe CT Orchestra, and generally an average kiddo and adult. Which was okay with me.

But getting the award was so meaningful to me b/c  heres the thing.

I LOVE this group. I have met  smart, dedicated women working tirelessly to do amazing things with their bness, to grow to learn and support one another .I have gained SO much from them. I am excited for our monthly  meetings& time together – inspiring! I always leave with a lifted hearted and a big smile. Ideas, questions and that deep feeling of connection. It fills my heart! I get so much out of HER Corner. 

Last year, I was in a rough spot for lil omm. I did not know what I wanted to do with it- where to take it- how to grow it and who I needed to help. I just was in unknown territory. I said to my hubby “I need a women’s bness group to help me. I want to be accountable and share ideas.. what should I do??”

Not even a week later, Fred postes on the Glover Park listserve ” Women’s bness group starting in Glover Park! This is for ladies who want to grow and have support and share ideas and be held accountable” WOWOW!  I called and emailed her with JOY- Enthusiastic YES! YES!

And the rest is history.. .new friends and colleagues, smiles, ideas, highs and lows, balancing time, family, money & priorities .  In it together.

More than I dreamed it would be.

“I define connection as the energy that exists between people when they feel seen, heard, and valued; when they can give and receive without judgment; and when they derive sustenance and strength from the relationship.” – Brene Brown

so tonight Im grateful for all the gifts this group has given me.

Im grateful for Fred & her team and mostly the other members who suppport& advise.- HER CORNER

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I got this beautiful GlassyBaby called BREATHE. how perfect.
thank you for this gift. a treasure.

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