Blue

post saylor party. beautiful weekend of joy.
today I feel emotional. deflated . a bit anxious.

I spend A LOT of time reading, writing and absorbing feelings associated with positivity. I live my life AWAKE. in the moment, vibrant, motivated positive ways and then I don’t.

And  today , where I need a long talk with my best friend &  to move my body and eat healthy to feed my soul. I need to spend time hugging my kids and rubbing feet and backs so that I connect with others. I know when I get down how to ask for help, reach out to those around me and give myself some space to be okay with the fact that I’m not okay today.

Part of loving life so much and jumping into change is that I also experience deep sadness. The yin and the yang. Practicing yoga does not mean I live life being happy all the time. it means I know the deep and vast experience that we have in this world. I have it  too. good days & hard days, joyous days & scared days. days of sleepiness & days full of energy.

Today my heart is heavy, my stomach in knots. I feel tears and I’m grateful that I have the capacity to feel my life the joy and the pain. I read this today. perfect.

West Wind #2

You are young. So you know everything. You leap into the boat and begin rowing. But listen to me.

Without fanfare, without embarrassment, without any doubt, I talk directly to your soul.

Listen to me. Lift the oars from the water, let your arms rest, and your heart, and hearts little intelligence, and listen to me.

There is life without love

It is not worth a bent penny , or a scuffed shoe…

When you hear, a mile away and still out of sight, the churn of the water as it begins to swirl and roil,

fretting around the sharp rocks- when you hear that unmistakable pounding-

when you feel the mist on your mouth and sense ahead the embattlements,

the long falls plunging and streaming- then row, row for your life toward it.

Mary Oliver

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